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Sometimes I feel like I’m strong enough to face everything that come over me, ignorance enough to neglect all the funny2 things, and cud create a great surroundings on my own to live in, but….hmm

Deep in this heart I was so grateful to be sent over here, but I do mad of a few parties that take us for granted. This is sooooo unfair!

One fine morning, I checked my email, n received a memo from a friend, and it has been forwarded by our another friend, (somebody who has been posted to Labuan). I smiled. And I found it was very surprising to see a memo from the government saying that we, all the officers who have to attend for a long term course, gonna get some added incentives so called Bayaran Sara Hidup (BSH) for those who are in Sabah, Sarawak n Labuan, which I think is quite a reasonable amount, to replace or cover all the benefits n allowances that we have lost throughout this NONSENSE course period! My friend asked me to call HQ for further clarification, as we think that we all deserve it. I keep on calling them from 8 to 5, but none was answered. Where have u been boys? Party?? I’m going sick of this typical disease which is getting widespread day by day. And the next morning, I’ve tried again n it went the same. Until I received a message from a friend saying that our friend managed to call HQ the day before. I called her, and she told me everything. And it is too much when hearing all the things. Huh! Our first thought had turned to be the other way round! Know what? Our allowances should be lesser than what we get now (starting from the day we started this ridiculous course). We all shouldn’t get the BIW as we leave our territory for more than 3 months. Ok, that one we have well-aware ever since day 1 we start the course. But when we get the pay-slip, the BIW is still paid. Ok, put it aside first.

What is BSH all about? HQ said: it will be given to those who have to cross the South China Sea, go to Sabah, Sarawak or Labuan for a long term course.

So, how about us? HQ said: in your case, you have to follow the peninsular BSH rate, means, your respective area rate, where you have been located for the course. Example, if your area entitled for RM100, so u’ll get RM100 lah. (Wahhh…this is so mean!)

But, we still get the BIW until now. How come? HQ said: that means, after this course, you have to pay back the entire over-paid amount to the Government. (Hwahhhh……)

My friend said to him: mane boleh cmni encik..ktorang dah willing dihantar kesana, dgn harapan kitorang dptla keistimewaan2 yg kitorang berhak dpt, berbanding yg dpt kt semenanjung..

HQ: Ye, sy fhm…sy fhm masalah encik. Tp mmg takde penyelesaian untuk tu. Tu sume *P* yg wat..

My friend: Jadi, mcm tu jelah??

HQ: Mcm tu lah…

Bla. Bla. Bla.

I think I have no problem to pay back all the money. Luckily, I still have my own saving even not that much. (But things are really burning a big hole in my pocket). I just felt down, because, since I stepped in to this sector, I feel like I’ve been threatened by their injustices act! Menyusahkan pekerja, yang bekerja untuk kesenangan rakyat. To-date, I realized, I am not working actually. I am just a dummy for them to do their work, just accept what they want to do and what they want to give.

Many are well-informed that the highest rate of BSH is of course Sabah, Sarawak and Labuan.

Just FYI, all the Sabah, Sarawak, Labuan officers (who are not locally from the respective territory they have been posted), will entitle for EPW, BIW, critical allowance, and housing allowance.

But, 4 of us are really2 unlucky! We just get the housing allowance out of the rest that we shud get (ni pun entah2 dia nak potong gak kalo bleh..yelah kan, save cost…BERKHIDMAT UNTUK NEGARA! yeah!!), just because of this so called long term course. But once again, it’s all NONSENSE. Attend or not, it’s just the same. Kursus tak serupa kursus. Syok sendiri!

I am getting tired. I wish I cud turn back time. Yes, I did said I won’t join my previous place, but at least at that time, maybe I can wait a little longer for another better chances. Huhu!

Ya Allah, please shed some light on me to move on… Help me to get rid of this feeling, and let me work with all my heart and sincerity…


Disappointed officer;
AJ