.:: another phase of life ::.

heheh..tetiba aku rasa minggu ni aku rajin plak membebel kt sini kan..terlebih byk masa kot.. ;p

hmm..smlm susah nak tido..mata ni selagi dia tak tutup, selagi tu la otak aku bekerja...mcm2 dia nak pikir..mlm2, gelap, fikiran pun mula la merayau tah kemana, jauh lak tuh..hoho

ntah le, aku slalu rasa aku mcm x cukup matang untuk meniti fasa kehidupan yg seterusnya...it's not just about getting married, tp life after marriage tu la the real platform, where we can see how we manage our life, plan the financial, control the emotion..(jgn plak bila aku ckp camni,org ingat aku dah nak kawen ye)..but yes, to deal with these things has their own arts..and the most important thing out of all is maturity...hmm..aku x tau org menilai aku mcm mana, tp aku sendiri rasa aku mmg belum matang..hahah...tp susahla mcm ni..kalo aku x matang2 jugak mcm mana..kalo umur tak meningkat takpala..kang muka da kerepot,tp diri masih di dalam fasa kanak2 ribena...hahaha..aku suka kehidupan yg enjoy (enjoy di sini bukan bermaksud kena pergi nite club, having party, dan minum2 ye), tp aku suka a lively life, building network with others, discover new things everyday, and just do things I adore..at times, walaupun kerja kena serius, tp aku tak bleh serius sgt...nt aku jd bosan..kdg aku suka main2, org ckp serius pun aku permainkan..(kdg tu aku silap pilih org...hoho..lantak engkaulah)..org yg main2 ni sinonim dgn childish kan..tp perlu ke serius untuk menjadi matang?hehehe...

ni lah, bila susah nak tido, fikir benda2 ngarut...akhirnya, mimpi pun benda yg ngarut gak..yelah, jenuh kerah otak pikir benda2 rumit..tak payah pikir pon sebenarnya..

Anyways.....I would just take some time and enjoy my youth, don’t think too much about how to handle all sorts of responsibility and maturity. Let it all comes naturally. Reckless and intellectual need to come hand in hand. My hair already have enough gray strands for now (just a hyperbolic and metaphoric statement okay..*ngeeheee) . And I am not giving up; I can play any game I want (flexibility and wide range of options are good) but I just have to plan my moves and be fully prepared..but do it with no rush.

*Tetiba aku rasa happy plak.. Benda tak berlaku lg, dan tak tahu akan berlaku atau tak..but I'm waiting for something gud, and I will always believe in myself, in all attempts I make.

Selamat malam.