Longing :')

"Some people are hurt by words, and some by actions, but what hurts most is, when someone starts ignoring you,when in fact you value them more than anyone else.

I miss u so much."

Got this words this morning, from someone i love.

It's been a while since our last chat. Every conversations we had at that time didn't seem right, and things seem to fall apart. I can sense.

I decided to keep quiet, so it won't get any worse. I don't want to ruin your happiness syg. I always want u to be happy, to be surrounded by only good things, and all u feel is good.. doing fine along the way. But i realized that my existence had just messed up your life.

My fault, I'm sorry. I feel embarassed.

I don't want to spoil your days with those annoyances, and add up  your disappointment on things that were happening at that moment.

My silence was meant to reset everything that have gone wrong between us. To clear up all the mistakenly understood words, the bad feelings, bad assumptions, and all. I want to come back to you with an open heart. Just like the first time we met years ago. I never ignore you for no reason, as u thought. It never cross my mind, indeed. Sometimes silence can let us see and learn something that we rarely could see.

Do u know that you are all that i want, to be by my side all the times, till this very moment?

Do u know that everytime your name appears on the screen, there'll be glee on my face?

Do u know that during this silent moment, i stared deeply on your name whenever it appeared online, as in we are communicating to each other, and how i wish i can tell u, how bad i miss u... *tears*

Do u know that u are still and always be my most favourite one?

Rindunyaaa... :'( :'( :'(

And last but not least, i bet u never thought that i even put your birth date as passcode on some of my private stuffs, to make me feel that u are always close to me... close to my heart..... Yes, to this extent...

I need u.